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April 17, 2002

well, today i finally got off my lazy butt and decided to drop off a few resumes at local design firms. it was such a crazy hot day, 29 degrees according to the newspaper. i took like such a long time to get out of the house, cuz i was debating on what clothes looked 'formal' but not too formal. geez. and i was trying to iron my shirts, but like i have no clue how to do that. i guess i need to ask my mom one of these days how to do that? that could be helpful.

anyways, i was kinda excited about dropping my resume off at one company cuz they were hiring a graphic designer, and their site looked pretty good and whatever. so i found the address and drove there. much to my surprise, it was not in a building as i had expected. it was a HOUSE. that's right, a HOUSE. frick! in my eye. i drove like i dunno, 15 minutes to realize that the company was a home based one. which means it was probably run by a person my age. who would have thought!?

i went to some other companies and dropped off my resume, and then i headed home. i figured i'd do the e-mail thing, that seems to work the best for me, and wouldn't waste my time going to the actual company. so i e-mailed a whole crap load of companies and i actually received an immediate response from a company in LONDON, ontario! crazy.

i really have no idea what God has in store for me this summer. should i be doing that volunteer job? or like should i be getting a design job that pays? or a job doing ministry work? all these questions. i really find that the only thing that satisfies me is like being involved in ministry work. that's what really makes me happy. but i really don't know what God has in store for my future. whether i become a graphic designer or not, only He knows. sometimes i wish He would just tell me, but that would ruin everything if He did tell me! i do know that God knows what's going on, so i shouldn't worry about this stuff. it's all so insignificant!

anyhow, at night, we had our counselor's meeting for fellowship stuff. it was cool :) we talked about a lot of different issues in the fellowship and what needs to be done. i think i really need to start praying for the fellowship and stuff. like to take a more pro-active role perhaps. there's so many needs and so much stuff to pray for! i was kinda thinking i might not help out next year, but there's like some serious need in the fellowship. but i don't think i should do it just because there's a need. like honestly, there will always be needs in ministry. but i kinda felt like i need to stay to help out or something. i'll need to pray about that some more, cuz i'm not totally sure. i mean, next year will be crazy with work and stuff, i just know it. but if this is what God wants, then i'll have to do it!

uncle tom brought up a really good point today. something that he says 'haunts' him everyday, but it's a definite good thing! so this is what he said. as God is a God of provision, He provides stuff for us. but when He starts providing for us (for example a job), we kinda tend to forget about Him and use what He provides for us as an excuse to not do stuff for Him. confusing? yes. like if God granted us a job, we'd go so hardcore in the job, that if some kinda opportunities came up, we might say we don't have any time cuz of the job. but God gave it to us in the first place! so it's basically, God always need to be put first. of course that's easier to say than to actually put in practise!

anyways.. i gotta do some crazy driving tomorrow. i'm going to york, then sheridan, then waterloo! oh my :)

Posted by Leo Chan at April 17, 2002 2:00 AM