the power of words..
August 19, 2002
physically, i've been pretty drained these past few days. i've been running myself pretty much ragged this entire past week. i barely remember what i've been doing to be honest. i need to slow down. i don't know what's making me so busy, but i need to just like relax and hang out at home. i'm like never here anymore and that means i'm totally not able to SLOW down and reflect on things. bah! that's like the total opposite of what i want to do! i just want to life the 'reflective' life, to be able to pause in certain moments of the day and see what's going on around me.
the main point of my entry tonight is just how much influence words can have. i've been 'quoted' TWICE these past two days. once by rachel during her testimony at coffee house (saturday). and once today, by amanda in her devotion. that's pretty crazy when i think about it. that people would actually want to QUOTE the things i say. i say a lot of things. too much in fact. maybe i just need to shut up more or just be more cautious of what i say because i know that the things i do affect other people (as scary as that is)... so i just need to make sure i'm not being a 'stumbling' block to any person.....cuz that's bad news...
we played softball today against basic (t3c).. i was getting somewhat annoyed near the end because a lot of stupid things were happening... so what i've been noticing about myself lately, is that i'm more easily irritated by things. maybe it's due to the lack of sleep or all this crazy scheduling that i have. all i know, it's not good and it needs to stop. i need to like CALM down more. and the only way that's gonna happen is that i need to slow down and get more sleep. and also like God helping me to just be more sensitive to things or be more open to things, you know? to not let the little things get on my nerves, because honestly, what is getting upset over silly things like that going to accomplish? NOTHING. it's just silliness. so yes. leo must calm down. i'm not normally like this. i don't know what's going on! aiya.
it's a short entry tonight, me is sleepy :) g'nite!
Posted by Leo Chan at August 19, 2002 1:49 AM
