free at last :)

December 12, 2002

lots of things have happened since i've last written. so instead of putting them all into one huge entry, i've decided to split them up.

i finally finished school last thursday. i don't know how well i did on my exam - i sorta tried to study, probably not my best effort. but all that matter was that it was done. and the first chapter of my second year had come to an end. like i've said, it's been a total struggle during the entire semester - but i think God's really been teaching me a lot. and the major thing He's shown me over first semester, is that if you proclaim to love God - then you MUST love His people. and so that could mean a variety of different things for you. for me, it meant that i had to stop getting "fat" in the church (as louie put it), and out into the streets to proclaim Him. :) He's reshown me that i just need to trust Him to get me through the rest of my time in design - even though i'm inadequate, even though i don't have the skills - He'll carry me through it.

back to thursday... andrew planned for me, gavin and keith to go over to his place after our exam to just hang out, play video games, eat, that kind of idea. he planned this deal for a really LONG time. what intended to be a four person thing, ended up to be like a 8 person thing - what can you do. :) karen, tim, jung and mandy came along, and mandy actually slept over! i basically spent the entire thursday/friday with them - cuz eric had to go back to sauga at night, so we hung out with them afterwards.

our group of friends are very indecisive, much like any teen/young adult our age - that's like one of the characteristics of our generation! we met up at square one and hung out there for a bit. man that place is HUGE - there's so much space - it seems like such a waste. if you want an idea of compactness, that's pacific. if you want a ton of space between stores, that's square one. :) we tried to decide what to do after that, and finally we did the whole bowling thing.

i sorta noticed something while i bowled. i've gone bowling many times before, but it's normally with my Christian friends. this time it wasn't. like the entire atmosphere felt different, felt a little strange. i guess it's cuz we weren't having fellowship with one another. how could we? not all of us were Christians! it was just bowling. plain ol bowling. stare at the pins fall down. roll the ball. clap if someone gets a strike/spare. stand up. sit down. seemed kinda pointless. so i just sat there and watched as things happened. i never really noticed that. maybe that's the difference between friendship and fellowship. i remember justin and i had this conversation back at the airport during the summer. well maybe that's the answer? i'm not disregarding the whole hanging out thing in a friendship - because it does serve it's purpose - it's just different.

Posted by Leo Chan at December 12, 2002 10:52 PM