who me?

February 15, 2003

tuesday night, i get a call from uncle pui-wing. he's one of the sunday school teachers from RHCBC. and get this, he asks me if i want to be a discussion group leader for the upcoming salt retreat. i was pretty shocked. i mean, where does he come off thinking that i could be a good discussion group leader? does he see something in me that i didn't notice? i'd only been at the church for about 4/5 weeks. but i told him yes. i wanted to start serving at the church, and here was an opportunity.

do i know what i'm doing? not at all. i don't find myself to be a good discussion group leader, i mean the times where i've had to lead group discussions, most people never said much. maybe it was me. maybe it was the group. in any case, no one really talked. it was like pulling teeth. do i think i'm qualified to lead a group? do i know what i'm talking about? hardly. but perhaps that makes me well suited to lead. because i don't know what i'm doing. and the only way anything good could come out of it is by the power of the Holy Spirit empowering me to do it :)

"i can do everything through Him who gives me strength" (philppians 4:13)

i was also asked to play bass for the salt retreat too. pretty heavy stuff! :) that's two committments for one thing. i'm not complaining, i just think it's neat that i've been given two opportunites to serve in the church after such a short period of time. it's pretty incredible! i'm happy. i really miss serving, in any capacity. i think that's been an area of my life that has been completely neglected since i've left markham. no opportunity to serve. but now, that's all different. :) i'll be heading out to the salt retreat next weekend, despite my concern with not being able to complete my work in time. but i'll just have to trust God with that :)

last sunday, i went out to the morning prayer meeting (it's unofficial) because casey's been asking me to go. and frankly, i've been wanting to go out and pray. it was pretty cool! :) it began with just me and him, and two other people came into the room while we were praying. it was an awesome time. i totally want to commit myself to going out and praying every sunday morning, unless i'm involved w/ the worship team or something :)

Posted by Leo Chan at February 15, 2003 6:22 PM