one step at a time...

July 5, 2002

praise God!

man, i've been totally wondering about this whole deal with august 31st. i mean, just with what's been happening and everything. it's like, once we reach our lowest point, God comes around and completely surprises me. i did NOT expect an e-mail from christine, seeing that she's giving birth to a child and everything. but she's onboard with us!! the e-mail was out of NOWHERE. since she didn't reply, i thought it was all over. isn't God funny like that? the things that we totally discredit, sometimes He just brings them right back.

i really think God is trying to teach me to just depend on Him for everything. i mean, honestly, this whole august 31st thing is like a step by step process for me. first it's like, coming up with the whole outline of the night, then finding a church for it, finding people to help us out with it, finding churches to practise. all of that. and it's like one by one, everything's coming together. slowly, but surely. God's so cool like that. and i totally understand. it makes so much sense. if God gave us everything we wanted, all at once, we'd be like, gee thanks God and then totally forget about Him. which is VERY uncool. i'm just blown away. God always gives me something to smile about, ALWAYS. the fact that i'm alive. which means i have another day to serve Him and know Him. Creator God.

as a group, we just all need to fall on our faces before Him for this thing. i don't really want to be the one propelling it forward, but maybe i have to. i just need to seek God in everything that we're doing for this :) yeah! He'll help me figure it all out! i am slowly but surely, getting very excited for it :) it'll be awesome. i just hope all of us are on the same page together. so i guess i'll like prepare a Bible study on "enough" or something? that'll be good.

i also went to UT CCF today, just to check things out. cuz yeah, the entire men's group was there! big jokes :) hahaha... we did this program called 'watching people' today. an interesting thing to do for a fellowship! we basically were supposed to watch people in their environments and how they interacted with people/things. and pray for them. to me, not a big deal. i like observing people. that's what introverts do. don't talk, just observe things that are going on. and speak up every now and then. but to my surprise, some people found it really difficult to just sit there and watch people. i really like this concept, it's cool. if i truly love God, i'll love His people and i'll be concerned with them knowing Him. cuz that's what it's all about. my main priority in life needs to be sharing this wondrous love that i know about with other people. so maybe i'll do this more at york. just kinda sit around on campus and watch people are doing and pray for them. that'll be really cool :)

i didn't get to meet many new people at CCF today, but it was a weird program, so what do you expect. and things were just kinda all strange today, so yeah. i dunno if i'll go back any time, cuz of drawing classes. but maybe i can move it? there seems to be some cool people there, some people i've seen here or there. so yeah, who knows? even if it's only for like 3 more weeks, it's all good :) we'll see what happens, i'll have to try and figure something out w/ henry and flora.

i should try and sleep a little earlier. i'm still sick :P g'nite!

Posted by Leo Chan at July 5, 2002 1:11 AM