the working life

July 23, 2003

it's been two days since i've started my job at inform media. after my first day yesterday, i came to a few realizations:

1) i could never do a normal 9-5 job like that. EVER. i came to this realization when i worked at UHS and now it just confirms it in my heart all the more. some people find satisifaction from doing the normal 9-5. i don't think i ever could. so what does this mean exactly? we'll see :)
2) i could not work in the design industry if i were to do what i'm doing now. there's simply too much pressure, and mind you, i'm barely doing anything. they give me projects, i work on them. but the problem is, i don't get the time that i'd normally put into a project, so i don't produce any kind of decent work IMO.

i'm still wondering why i'm there. haven't really figured that one out yet. i'm not interested in earning money. i'm not interesting in gaining experience in the design industry. but what my desires are of no significance because it's not my life. it's His. "I know, O LORD , that a man's life is not his own; it is not for man to direct his steps." jeremiah 10:23 [NIV] i'm praying that by my actions, people would see Christ. i'm praying that i'll be able to actually TALK to some of my co-workers and see where they stand with God. now THAT would make it all worthwhile. :)

working from 9-6 is pretty taxing on my time schedule, considering i have to do my 10 hrs for york every week, and still go to school. i don't know how i can handle all of this. but i trust that God'll work that all out for me.

OH, and an update about CTI. i have to reapply to them, even though i'm still on file. so i'm hoping i can get some available time to fill out the forms sometime soon. i'm thinking i might go for July/August instead of June/July, so i can go to summer school.

Posted by Leo Chan at July 23, 2003 8:16 PM