more reflection :)

June 20, 2002

i heard a really interesting thing from passion on a hill today. "God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him" (john piper). what an accurate statement. that's such an interesting thought. it kinda parallels what jer was saying with being content with where we are at right now. maybe that's the thought for the week. or maybe not the week, for life. being satisfied in God in everything. all aspects of life. i guess relationally is the biggest thing. i need to completely know, mind, heart and soul that God is all i need. and that's kinda like the 'pre-requisite' for lack of a better term for me finding a wife. i can't be looking to others for acceptance or love. it's God first and He's all i need and i don't need anything else kinda thought that needs to be the sole thing that drives me. so yeah, that's my prayer. that i come to a place where i am most satisfied in God. now that i'm talking about this, it reminds me a verse i recently read in proverbs (i think chapter 30, could have been 29 though). basically he was asking God to just give him what he needs (financially). not too much that he would forget about God, but not so little that he'd have to steal. i think that echoes what i think too. if i had too much money, i'd probably be stupid and like buy all this stuff and forget. and if i was having problems with money, that'd probably all i'd be worried about.

anyway, something totally unrelated: we had class presentations today. there were three groups that discussed different aspects of the universe and what have you. what intrigued me about the presentations (actually it was only the first one), were the people presenting. two of the group members were so excited and passionate about everything they said. you can tell, the way the presented themselves, the way they delivered the information. it was incredible. i would not have that same kind of passion talking about this space stuff, maybe it's cuz it's not my passion in life. but yeah, i guess it's like there will always be something that people will be interested in even if you aren't. and it's important to respect those differences. not much of a super revelation, but a nice reminder.

after class, it was time to go over to lydia's house for the prayer meeting for the retreat. i didn't really wanna go. i have no idea why. but anyhow, it was kinda nice just being there and 'hearing' people pray and talk and all that. yeah, it's kinda wrong to listen to the way people pray, but i mean it was cool. some of them were just so honest about everything with God and just kinda telling Him everything on their hearts/mind, like a child would to a father. it was just so beautiful. and colin, he was so excited about reading Scriptures and stuff and sharing with us. i think i 'lack' that in my walk with God. the whole like being excited for things. maybe there's nothing wrong with that because being excited is only a temporary feeling, but you know what i mean. the joy, the excitement of knowing Christ. that should be like a constant thing, i believe. i mean come on, we get to know the CREATOR of the entire universe! isn't that HUGE? :) i kinda wish i was like that, you know. the awe, the wonderment of a kid. :)

anyhow, it's late. time for leo to sleep! i have to help my dad move out stuff from his office. :) g'nite!

Posted by Leo Chan at June 20, 2002 2:35 AM