confused yet again :p

June 27, 2002

well, course selection was this morning. i got ALL the courses i wanted, except for intro to psych.. massively in my eye. the section that i wanted (which was wednesday) was more or less full. there's reserved spots, but they're reserved for psych majors. so what i'm supposed to do is wait until mid july and then call back the behavior science building people and inquire then. so basically i don't have any hope of getting into that class. i had to do something, so i took the class on thursday. from 11:30 - 2:30. which ruined my plan. and that was getting thursday/friday off first term and thursday off for second term. and the reason why i wanted that, was so i could go to like CCF or CCC on thursday nights. yeah, i plan to go to a campus fellowship next year. i think i need to. so yeah, having those days off was like pretty integral cuz i could get everything done.

so, perhaps God has something in store for me being there on thursday. i have no idea. and now i'm confused about my courses. my friend told me that students who take 30 credits have get an earlier enrolment date than those who take less credits than that. so that kinda screws me over pretty hardcore. now i'm not sure what to do. i'm going to have to call the design office tomorrow and figure it out because i don't want that happening to me. at the same time, i can't really take 30 credits cuz i have no idea what to take! *sigh* i don't know what's going on anymore. hopefully this'll be resolved tomorrow when i call them up.

anyhow, today was class like normal. but for some reason, it was a little different. like 2 people started talking to me and andrew. it was the weirdest thing ever. we were just kinda sitting on a bench, and this like lady comes out of nowhere and starts talking to us. it was pretty hilarious :P i guess class is so much more interesting when you meet people or whatever u know? of course i know andrew & keith, but yah, u know what i mean.

i finally decided to start reading screwtape letters tonight. why? cuz i was frickin bored out of my mind :P hahah. it's pretty interesting. i'm slow, so i had to like figure out what was going on, so i read the first letter twice :P i guess it's kinda weird thinking that the devil is writing to you as one of his 'spawns' and trying to devise ways to screw up people. but it's pretty interesting. the first letter kinda talks about how arguement & reasoning is bad news for the devil. cuz people start thinking and whatever and that's bad news. so it's best to 'pull the wool' over people's eyes, making them believe that present day is the real life and there's nothing more to it. i think one of the most striking phrases to me is this:

"even if a particular train of thought can be twisted so as to end in our favour, you will find that you have been strengthening in your patient the fatal habit of attending to universal issues and withdrawing his attention from the stream of immediate sense experiences. your businses is to fix his attention on the stream. teach him to call it 'real life' and don't let him ask what he means by 'real'."

it goes back to what i was saying a few days ago about emotions. they suck :) if we let them dictate our day-to-day experience, we are misleading ourselves from the promises of God and our identity in Him. cuz somedays we won't feel like God is loving and all that stuff, but does that ever change? NO. thank heavens no. cuz our God is unchanging and no matter what obstacles comes in our path, that will never change! also, that passage is kinda hitting on the fact that we as humans are drawn to things that give us IMMEDIATE pleasure. why else would our world be so corrupted? people see sex as a good thing, so they do it. people see alcohol as a good thing, so they drink it. no one thinks about the long term effects. what kind of consequences will happen as a result of their actions? it's not important, because what they do then and there is what's important. i need to remember to live in the world, but not be of the world. :)

i think i'm gonna head off early tonight. so that's it! :) g'nite :)

Posted by Leo Chan at June 27, 2002 12:01 AM