just imagine...

November 23, 2002

i played for worship yesterday at CCC. it was an interesting experience as always. the people really have no grasp of layering musically. and i found it funny and odd at the same time. we did "Lord You have my heart" and the leader prayed before we started the song and said some stuff - so we were basically in this quiet, meditative mood - and then we start and everyone is just belting it out! i mean - hello! does that make sense? i'm critical! yes, i realize that, but i can't help it. it's just a really simply thing! :) oh well, i'll try to introduce that when i'm leading next semester! hehe.

when the whole program ended, i went to help out to clean up the sound system stuff - i'm pretty happy doing that since most people don't bother helping or don't know how to help. so i just cleaned up stuff. no one says anything to me. and i'm like, gee that's just great isn't it. i've been here for a few months now AND i'm on the worship team. and the most someone can say to me is like "thanks" or the generic "how's it going" for maybe a whole minute. i mean - COME ON! what's going on here? so basically, i just cleaned up the sound system, helped moved some chairs back to normal and then left as fast i could. it's not like anyone noticed me leaving. *sigh* why am i so left out all the time? i was pretty upset when i left. so i decided to go to waterloo to visit jon, justin & sharon - my FRIENDS, my family.

i went up waterloo today, just a one day thing. it was nice to see them again - it's been a long time! me, justin and sharon went to the laurier cafe to grab some lunch (although i already ate lunch) before we went to see jon. the burgers are QUITE good - justin was saying how great they are so i had to try it out! i mean come on, how can i refuse? then we went over to jon's place and just basically hung out there. he introduced me to the POTATO GUN! it's this neat gun that uses like an explosion (i have no idea how that works) to fire out potatos. and apparently, this sucker can shoot things at 250 m/s! that's incredible. i have to see it in action sometime! :)

we watched ice age for a while, then went over to mel's to eat with some people that justin, sharon and jon knew. i haven't been to mel's in a long time, so i was pretty good with eating a 2.99 dinner :P it was a real weird dinner i'd like to say. a couple of guests showed up that none of us had expected to be there - it was supposed to just be me, sharon, justin, jon, dawn, amy, karrie and evelyn or something like that. and then godfrey, edgar, alex chow, and julia show up. i guess all the laurier people are pretty close or whatever. basically, it was like me jon, justin, sharon and dawn on one side of the table. and everyone else on the other side (we didn't talk to them at all). it was a strange arrangement. i think next time i go up to waterloo - i will refuse to eat with anyone else other than MY friends - if that's selfish - then it's selfish. cuz i don't want to have these weird things happen again. and these weird things don't happen when it's just us.

but yeah, some very uncool things happened during dinner. things that i'm not going to get into - but needless to say, i wasn't too pleased and neither were my friends. it was just like a totally bad news deal. and i learned something about myself. i made a passing comment on how "boys wait on girls" just as a joke, as a response a person made a comment to me that was, in my opinion, VERY TIGHT - i just met the person, and then they cut me up (maybe it was as a joke - but honestly, it wasn't nice! it was so in my eye). and so in my defense, i had to throw back a comment to "soften" the blow, or maybe just to retiliate cuz of a "pride-thing". and when i think about it now, i should have kept my mouth shut. i'll meet people like that in life, i'm sure. so if i'm always going to have to retiliate, that's just not cool. i just need to like shut up. suck it up. or whatever, move on. that kind of thing. not react - because then i'm reacting to a person. and that means i can't control my emotions - which is not a good thing. so i need to ask God to help me with that - maybe just to not care so much what people say in that regard. and also, to help me watch what i say - because a comment doesn't necessarily get interpreted the way you want it to be - especially when you're with people you don't know. i mean, it would have been fine if it was just my friends - but there were people i wasn't familiar with. so i just need to be more careful/cautious/aware of what i'm saying.

we ended up going back to jon's place and watched "the count of monte cristo" instead of going to CCF because of the bad news stuff. it's quite the heroic man's movie! yup, i'm that descriptive for it. i really enjoyed it a lot, so i have to track down a deal on it and get it cheap :)

when i went to drop justin and sharon off, i went up for a bit. and we got to talking about the whole snow shovelling thing that justin and i did like last year (we only did it once, but whatever). but we were like saying how if there were a whole bunch of us (just say 10), we could shovel a whole load of driveways and just give people some like hot chocolate or something and tell em that God loves em! now how cool would that be? we'd be getting into our OWN communitites and showing them Jesus. that's what i'm talking about. so we totally have to do this, THIS december. just round up people - and go for it :) that'd be so incredible!!

i think it would be the coolest thing in the world, if Christian families just lived sold out lives for Him in their neighborhoods - if they did little things, maybe like mowing their lawn for them or shovelling their snow or stuff like that. wouldn't that be cool if a family could affect other families around them by living out their faith IN the community?? that's awesome! that would be so cool!

that's about it tonight! it was great to see justin, sharon & jon again :) it's been TOO long! g'nite

Posted by Leo Chan at November 23, 2002 1:06 AM