to the readers of my journal

September 21, 2003

i am trying to be as honest with what i've been feeling and thinking in this journal because it's the way i record what happens in my life. i don't like to write on paper because it takes too long. that being said, i know that there are people who read this and have been concerned because some of my entries have been different from what i normally write. these are the things i've been feeling and thinking about. this month hasn't been easy. it's been downright hard, and has been the hardest time in my life ever. but, if some of the psalmists could include their thoughts and feelings in books that are recorded in the BIBLE, why can't i write about these things in my journal? it would be a grave injustice and unhealthy practice for me to deny the feelings and thoughts that have been in my mind.

i'll be okay in time. God makes everything beautiful in His time, but the key words are 'in His time', with more emphasis on the word 'time'. don't worry about me. if you wanna see how i'm doing, give me a call! i don't make my entries private, because i want to be as transparent as possible.