the effect of sin
September 26, 2003
with the barrage of entries over the last weekend, i didn't want to overdo it with another entry about what happened to me early sunday morning. since then, i haven't had much time to sit down and write about it. but now the opportunity arises.
last sunday morning, i awoke at about 4:45 am. i was having problems breathing and i felt really dizzy. actually i thought i was going to faint. it seemed like i wasn't getting enough oxygen in my body. at first, i simply thought of it as a headache, so i went upstairs, took an advil and drank some water. as time passed, i realized that it wasn't helping. i was worried that there was something horribly wrong with me and debated whether or not i should go to the hospital. i promptly decided to wake my mom up, in case i fainted or something. but i didn't want to bother her, so after a few minutes of standing outside her door, i woke her up and let her know what was going on with me. soon after, my dad woke up and my mom told him what was going on. they couldn't figure out what was wrong. my dad gave me some medicine to take, figuring it was allergies. but i knew it wasn't. there was something in my body that didn't like being there, but i couldn't put my finger on it. it wasn't like i ate anything strange the day before. the only thing i thought it could be was the fact that i had been in my brother's room for about 2 hrs the night before and maybe i breathed in something funny.
almost immediately after i took the medicine, i felt a burning desire to go to the sink and let it out (aka throwing up). and there it was. all this liquidy stuff came up out of my throat, out of my mouth and nose. by this point of time, i was incredibly worried. this isn't what happens to a normal person in a normal day. but after that happened, i felt better. i could breathe better and my headache and dizzyness subsided. by this time, it was about 6 am.
as i sat down on the couch, reflecting on what just had happened, it hit me. the way a human body deals with toxins is an almost immediate rejection of it. when toxins enter a body, it affects the body in some way, fashion or form. the body, of course, does not like having toxins in the body because it interrupts it's 'balanced' state, so it in turns, tries to spurge the toxins in any way it can (in my case, through throwing up). likewise, when we sin, the toxin affects us. in may not result in any kind of physical manifestation, but spiritually, it affect us. sin temporarily breaks the fellowship we have with our Heavenly Father. so our immediate response, like the body, should be an outright denial/rejection of the sin, to get rid of it as soon as possible. which, in our case, means repentance. some people, for whatever reason, after sinning continue on with their day without repenting of it. that's a dangerous practice, because sin, like toxins, affects you. and the more time you let pass, the more time it has to affect you. like the body, we need to rid ourselves of "the sin that so easily entangles" (hebrews 12:1) as soon as possible.
Posted by Leo Chan at September 26, 2003 3:08 PM
