my sporadic rants...

October 13, 2002

i've been really unproductive lately. maybe it's because of thanksgiving weekend? i just can't seem to get anything done. i set goals for myself to finish certain things on certain days and they didn't pan out at all! oh well. what can you do!

i went to loblaws yesterday to kill some time before heading to the mall after i got my hair cut. i was really impressed. the loblaws is really well-designed. the signage was gorgeous!! and the place was really spacious, maybe TOO spacious if you ask me! but all good.

so here's what i was thinking while i wandered around aimlessly: do the people shopping here even take a second to think about what they're doing? or is it by some natural response that they go to a supermarket to get food when they run out? aren't we so fortunate to have things like supermarkets, convenience stores, etc.? if we run out of food, we simply have to go somewhere to get more. what a lavish lifestyle we live, and yet we take it for granted so often. i take it for granted so often. i realize that i'm a picky eater. if there's a tomato on my food, i won't touch it. if there are vegetables i don't like, i'll just ask for something else or not eat them.

a large number of people suffer from CHRONIC hunger each and every single day - 840 million people in fact. every 3.6 seconds, someone dies from hunger or a hunger-related cause. 24,000 people die each day from hunger. aren't those facts just appalling? it's downright scary. and here i am, choosing what foods i eat. how selfish am i? now i don't know what i'm supposed to do in response to this. but i think it's just to really and truly satisfied and thankful for what God provides me with. and i always need to be reminded of this. ALWAYS. i'm an ungrateful person. i think we all are. we always take for granted the things that we have. i need to always come back to the fact that God has provided for me in ways that are just so incredible and so lavish and everything.

now on something completely unrelated: the church shopping continues tomorrow! it'll either be: the river OR rexdale alliance church. we'll see what happens! i'll post what happens tomorrow.

i also got to hang out with justin today! it's been a really long time. too bad i couldn't to hang out with him more. bah! i should really try and keep more regular contact with him, like i read his blogs and stuff like all the time, but i don't get to TALK to him. i should call him!! get his prayer requests and stuff like that. that'll be good. or even email. any form of communication would do!

pneumatos was tonight. it was nice all the 'oldies' from MCBC come back and just hang out. i really didn't get to spend time with them though, like on a personal basis. like janice for example. i haven't seen her in ages or heard from her in ages, and i didn't get much of a chance to talk with her. blah! no fun. next time she comes back, that'll have to change.

i feel like i'm losing contact with everyone. design is taking up too much time again. but maybe it's not so important to be updated on everyone like everyday or every week! i still remember what christine said (from Sufficiency!!!) about the vine and how our fellowship is THAT much sweeter when we see each other again. and i'm beginning to see that. like just having a brief lunch with justin was really nice, even though it was brief. just to hear what's going on with him and stuff like that! i gotta get an update from sharon too. maybe tomorrow? :)

anyhow, i'm like really tired now. i wrote more than i previously expected. lol. not that i'm surprised! okay, that's it.. g'nite!

Posted by Leo Chan at October 13, 2002 1:44 AM