He's always surprising me

October 18, 2002

so i finally got my mark back on the typography project that i handed in last week. and i did a lot better than i had previously thought! i actually thought i was going to fail, or be really close to it, because i had no clue whether or not what i was doing was "right". although there is no single solution for a design job, there are solutions that are in the right direction. so basically, i just did something, handed it in and that was that.
and guess what? i got a little bit higher than 75%. i was totally shocked. i couldn't believe what i saw. so i was the happiest person yesterday, just amazed at God. because it was all Him. i didn't get a 75% mark, He did. i couldn't do it, but He helped me to do it? why? cuz He loves me. plain and true! He put me here, He'll get me through it. :)

God is faithful to His promises. i've been reading the book of joshua over the past little while and i just finished reading it today. it's pretty neat, aside from the parts where the feel like listing ALL the territories and borders of each division of land to certain people (it's a little dry - i did skip over it :P) but God just shows Himself again, and again that He's faithful and true to the promises He makes. no matter what the circumstance looks like, no matter how people perceive things, one thing remains - God's faithfulness. you also see joshua grow and develop into this amazing obedient man of faith. he starts as this young person who's scared and unsure of what to do, and God constantly reminds him to be "strong and courageous", and to follow everything that He was commanded to do. and so over his lifetime, he eventually learns this.

there's so much to be learned from joshua! :) and i think for me, God's just reaffirming me remaining in the design program. even though i don't have any fun, or i find trouble finding joy in it, and i feel so inadequate, He still has me here for a reason! and even it's not to "change the world", but to start something, to perhaps lay foundation for something, that's really cool. the Christian group that we got going in design is going to start soon! hopefully next week. i've finally gotten everyone's schedule and proposed a date. i'm really excited. i'm not sure what to do yet with the group, but i definitely to keep praying about it, keep seeking God about it. i do believe that He will be glorified through it, and that this group will be like this totally awesome thing! :)

i didn't head out to fellowship tonight because i wanted to stay home and work. i think i've been making mountain out of a mole hole in terms of the amount of work i have, but i think it's good in some ways. i mean, i shouldn't be slacking off, etc (which i have been doing). i really need to get down to things and focus.

one of the things that has been on my mind a lot, is my website (yourchristianhome.com). i've never really had any major problems or issues with the site, until now. i have been contacted by my web host that i'm over the bandwidth transfer limit (i've been over for QUITE some time now, but never been charged). and the fee is pretty insane. they're charging $6 for each GB over 6. last month i got about 11 GB of trasnfer. that would be an additional $30 for a month. it's simply not worth it. but the thing is, i love my host. they're friendly, they're responsive, the hosting has been awesome, and the best thing, it's a Christian host to boot! :) i really don't want to switch to another web host because it'll be really troublesome. *shrugs* i need to pray about it. a lot of my time and energy has gone into trying to come up with a viable solution for this issue. hopefully my host will give me a discount or something! otherwise i'll be forced to switch servers.

back to the whole school thing, i bombed my psych test from last week. not that i expected to do too well, but i didn't expect it to be so bad. i got a big time high of like 63.8% or so. isn't that horrible? i'm telling you, packing 17 hours in three days is NOT good for grades or for the body. i'm totally dead physically, and mentally. which isn't too good when you think about it, because half the time i don't know what's going on! i met some guy yesterday in my psych class. he was an asian dude, a 1st year psych major. didn't really get to talk to him too much, but whatever. nice to just touch base with someone in the class. i totally forget his name now though. oh dear. i'm becoming more and more forgetful!!

so that basically sums up what has been happening with me for the past few days. i have a lot of work to do this weekend: study like mad for research in design & finish up my communication design 1 work. hopefully i'll finish that tomorrow so i can concentrate on studying for 2 days. i have to catch up on my reading for that class, since it impaled me the time i tried back in september. i haven't done any readings for it in fact!! aiya. :P

but yah, that's about it for now! i'll post more later on at some point. g'nite :)

Posted by Leo Chan at October 18, 2002 12:45 AM