God is moving!

October 31, 2002

i rarely have time anymore to keep a daily journal of what's going on in my life, so maybe it'll just have to be once/twice a week.

we did end up meeting on monday, as planned, though not everyone showed up. i realized that the group isn't as high as a priority to some of the people as i would have liked, but i can't do much about that! basically, it was only four of us that met - silvia, flora, philina and me. i had wished all of us could have been there to discuss things, but what can you do.

so basically we're going to go about it as a prayer group, either meeting weekly or bi-monthly - and the focus is basically sharing and praying for one another and the people in the program . we've realized that there actually are MORE Christians in the program - we just need to get in contact with them, and see if they want to join up. man that'd be awesome! if we all rallied together, it would rock!! it'd be so cool :) i think the amazing thing about just sharing and talking on monday with one another, was that we're basically all struggling with the same thing - i never knew people were struggling about staying in the program and all that stuff! so it's kind of really comforting for me :) and we also have basically the same passion to see people to come to know Christ :) so yeah, hopefully that passion will carry into action or what have you. i'm excited about this group - i think God can do lots of things through us :)

i've noticed a really interesting thing on monday about design. there's like a lot of Christian influence, at least historically. because the first printed books were basically Bibles, etc. so people are 'open' in some way, or at least exposed to Christianity at some degree or another. the thing is just finding out what that degree is! :)

i helped andrew move yesterday (tuesday). it took me so long just to ask him if he needed help. why am i so stupid like that? hmm.. but yeah, i just wanted to help because he's a non-Christian (though he's got a lot of traces of Christian background it seems) and i want to get more involved in his life! so finally i got around to asking him, and he's like sure, so i went over on tuesday to help him out. i was only there for about 4 hours, but it was cool. we were just hanging out and stuff, and i got to find out more about him and his background. i really wonder what happened! i mean, i know he went to rh3c at some point, but i think somewhere down the road, it just didn't happen anymore. *shrugs* i'll find that out someday, what exactly happened!

i went over to gavin's place today. i've never really hung out with him before, despite many invitations (i couldn't make it the times he asked), but today i had a free day so i was like sure, why not. he's a real nice guy. real hospitable and stuff! he's like always offering his place to people and everything which is really cool! he asked me about what i was going to be doing in the future, like if i was going into graphic design full time or what not. and i'm like no, i'm going to seminary most likely. he didn't know what it was! so i explained to him that i was going to be a pastor. haha :) i don't know what he thought of that, so i asked him what he was going to do. and he wants to get into animation, just like karen! that's kinda neat. but yeah, i can't really say i don't know what i'm going to do, because i'm like 99.999999% sure that i'm going to be a pastor, so i might as well be up front about it, eh? so anyways, we just hung out for a good like 5 or so hours, playing some GTA VICE CITY (which is such a SWEEEEEEEEEEEET game) and we went out for some pizza. it was cool!! :)

i'm really trying to get more involved in my friend's lives - i mean, just hanging out, sharing good times with one another, that kinda stuff. and maybe, somewhere along the road, they'll ask what's up with me, or wonder about me (in a good way of course, hopefully). but yeah, i mean, building friendships takes time, so i've been trying to do that in these past few days, because i've had the time, which is unusual. in any case, it's been really cool.

there's this other guy, named sam, who's in my type II class. and last week i found out he was a baptist Christian. i was going to approach him today and tell him about our group and see what he thought. and guess what, he actually sat beside me in class (which never happens). and so, i had the chance to ask him, but my stupid shyness overcame me and i didn't say anything because i didn't want to 'bother' him while he was doing his sketches/work. what kind of lame excuse was that. so i was stupid today and didn't say a thing. bah! in the eye. God still has to push me, nudge me along, because it'll take a while for me to change :) a LONG while at that!

oh a neat thing that i noticed on tuesday, was this. while i was driving to sheridan, i was stopped at a traffic light. have you ever noticed the exhaust of a car come out of the cars on a cold day? you can actually SEE it, as opposed to most of the times where it's 'invisible' to the naked eye. as i was staring at it, i felt like it was another one of those sacred special moments. so here's what i drew from it. it's basically a lot like our Christian faith and the way we live our lives. most of the times, Christians are like the case where the exhaust is invisible. it's your typical case of the sunday Christian. but let's take it further than that. it's even to those Christians who just sit in the church and hoard all of that to themselves without sharing the GREAT news with others (people like me). and every now and then, something might happen where that exhaust becomes visible - that our faith is proclaimed, is known, is shown to others around us - maybe by circumstances or what have you. and what it needs to be like, is that it's proclaimed to people everyday - that everyone around us would see see the exhaust daily - that they would know that Christ lives in us! :)

okay. i think that's about it for g'nite! i've got a lot to do for the next few days, like normal! :) i'm playing for CCC worship tomorrow! that'll be interesting :)

Posted by Leo Chan at October 31, 2002 12:25 AM