thoughts on york/sheridan

September 13, 2002

i haven't written in a while.

lots of things have happened this week and i haven't had a chance to really sit down and reflect and write about it.
one of the things is about my future. my life as a designer perhaps? not really. i went to volunteer at RGD (registered graphic designers of ontario) on saturday cuz i wanted this free book you could get if you volunteer 3 hours of time. and i got a whole bunch of my friends to come with me since i didn't want to do it alone :) it wasn't too bad. we just spend like 3 hours packing a whole bunch of materials into the envelopes so they were ready for mailing. and we talked during the entire time! it was actually kinda fun.

anyhow, one of my friends told me that she got an internship at the discovery channel over the summer. pretty cool huh? i think maybe during first year, i would have actually been really envious/jealous of her. because i'd want an internship so i could experience and what have you. but you know what? i didn't care at all. NOT AT ALL. zero, zip, zilch! so i was thinking to myself, what's going on here? have i come to such a point i'm completely apathetic to anything design? perhaps.

monday rolls around - my first day back at school. there's a ton more people in 2nd year, or at least it felt that way. our 6 hour lecture classes are packed full of people, and i definitely don't like that. i don't like being around a whole bunch of people. makes me nervous, uptight, scared even. but yeah, they were talking about whatever. and i was going to stab myself. wondering why i was sitting in my seat listening. "do i even care?" but i saw a lot of faces i haven't seen over the past summer and that just sorta reaffirmed how God had put me there. the second class, an interesting point was made by a student. he was talking about industrial design and how ridiculous it was that people would create all these different products for the same use (ie. a kettle) and have people waste all their money it. and my professor responded with something like this: "designers do not fulfill a need in a person, designers create a want in a person that does not already exist." and then he talked about how stupid that was because there's all these people starving in 3rd world countries and stuff. and i thought about that. it's VERY TRUE. how many of us actually care? or are aware of what's going on? not many of us. and it's so sad. after i heard that, i'm like geez. what kind of program am i in!? i think God's also reaffirming with me how i'm just there because He put me there. i really doubt it'll be my future career!

it's all about seminary baby :) seriously. i'm actually looking forward to it :) i just want to finish these 3 more years and then move on to something i really want to do :) but i think i need to make sure my attitude doesn't get all like "whatever, who cares" type thing. it's still gotta be on trying my best and remembering that i should want to be in the program because God put me there :)

Posted by Leo Chan at September 13, 2002 1:33 AM