going deeper

September 19, 2002

looking back on what i wrote on monday, i'm actually pretty shocked at the feelings i had.

i've been back to my 'normal' self these past days. it's because i've picked up my Bible and resumed my devotions for the past few days :)

i think i've been making my school a lot BIGGER than it really is. i've been magnifying the amount of work i have into this seemingly impossible task that cannot be completely, when in actuality, with a lot of hardwork, it can be done, with God's help, God's strength. i do believe that this year will be another challenge/struggle for me as a 'designer'. new challenges will come my way, i can already see it. but i know that God'll carry me through it.

i'm still struggling with not wanting to be there, especially in my psychology class. it's all frosh students. and i can't stand it. they complain, they swear. geez. it's so annoying. i want to smack them all around. and they have this mentality like they're all that, and all this crap. frickin. i've got some definite attitude problems w/ them, but i can't help it. it's just so frustrating! i have to look and see the greater purpose of my being there. from the looks of things, i'm not going to be meeting anyone anytime soon.

ANYHOW, i went to this thing called "the cutting edge" tonight with eric. he wanted to go to it. basically it's this like discussion forum on different topics relating to Christianity. christa gave him a brochure thing for it, and thought he'd like it. so we went! turns out there were like only 7 of us, and the 5 of them were like 40+ year old males :P at first i was kinda intimidated, but we stayed. and it was really cool. they talked about some interesting things! :) some of it was too intellectual for me, like over my head.

and i think one of the things God was trying to tell me tonight, was that i need to go deeper. i need to spend more time in the Word, more time getting to know Him. i think He wants me that of me. and i want to learn more of Him. so hopefully i'll start spending more time just getting to know God more. maybe like morning and evening devotions. that'll be cool :)

another interesting tidbit was a thing one of the guys said about post-modern science. just how traditional science used to be (and still is) given more importance than religion. religion would be an unimportant matter. but post-modern science realizes that a lot of the things that the use to believe was right actually turns out to be wrong, etc. and so religion is now moving up to a position, so that it's basically 50/50 with science. the guy said that it was sad how that kind of thinking hasn't been accepted into instituions like universities, etc. but i think it will eventually. and i think it's awesome :) eric really enjoyed it tonight. i could tell that he would while i was sitting there. it's totally his kinda stuff :)

anyways, i should be getting to bed. i'm so pumped for tomorrow. WORSHIP TOGETHER conference baby! but that's not the greatest thing about it. LOUIE GIGLIO is preaching tomorrow morning. i'm so excited! tim told me that he actually MET him today......... ohhhhhhhhh.. i'm so jealous... he actually talked to the MAN.............. i gotta talk to louie! :) he's like my hero. he really is!

ok, ok... that's enough from me! g'nite :) worshiptogether awaits!!!

Posted by Leo Chan at September 19, 2002 11:53 PM