the cost of transparencyJanuary 19, 2006last week, our class got cancelled because our professor thought school started a week later. since we had so much extra time, three of us decided to grab breakfast at mcdonalds. i had already eaten my breakfast a few hours earlier, but i was up for spending some time with them. since i'm still getting to know these two, the typical questions came up. the one question i dread being asked is if i have any siblings. without fail, that question is always the one asked at some part of your getting to know another person. sure, it's an innocent question, but when you come from a history like mine, it's not. the question is loaded. every time i'm faced with asking the question, i have a choice to make. do i open up my life to the person asking or do i shut off that part of my life from them? for me, it depends on the circumstance. if you're a person that i'm just shooting the breeze with (i.e. people from my club), i'm not going to go into it. but if you're someone i'm trying to get to know and befriend, then i will open up my life to you, no matter how hard, how painful and uncomfortable it is for me to do it. the irony in all of this, is that whatever answer i give, the result ends up to be pretty similar. if i say i have no siblings, then the issue is settled. it's not going to be brought up again because there's nothing to talk about. but if i say i had a sibling, people generally understand that it's a touchy issue and they most likely won't mention it ever again. frankly, not even my friends who know about all this ask me about eric. i mean why would they? what would they say? about two weeks ago, i was over a friend's house getting some books from their mom. when all of a sudden, she asks me about how my parents are doing and she asks me about eric. her question caught me off guard, because NO ONE ever asks me anything like that. i blurted out some kind of response. she seemed to think that i had "gotten over it" since so much time had passed. in actuality, it wasn't as long ago as it feels... only 2.5 years ago. i don't think you can ever get over someone's death, especially when it's your own immediate family, and especially when it's that kind of death. i think you can learn to continue on with life. i think you can learn how to face the new day and not dwell on the past. i think you can learn how to deal with the emotions that lay deep within. but to get over it? i don't think so. getting over it seems to imply that you forget, that you no longer cherish and love the person. i refuse to do that. i love my brother, regardless if he's not physically here with me. you simply cannot take out your emotions and disconnect them from your heart. back to mcdonalds. as we were eating, eventually the question pops up, "so leo, do you have any siblings?" i briefly hesitate and decide to tell them that yes, i had a brother. they ask a few questions. it's uncomfortable. i'm uncomfortable. a wave of emotions flood over me. i speak in a low voice. if you can't feel or imagine what that moment was like, i can tell you that it was really hard. it was hard to open up my life like that, even though it was only for a brief moment. i often have said that my heart has run into the mountains never to be found again. my heart has been hurt once. it doesn't need any more. but i made a choice that day. i wanted to be intentional in getting to know these guys, so i decided to share with them my story despite the pain it took to do it. that's what being transparent is all about. sometimes it can cause you extreme pain. but if we want authentic relationships, transparency has got to be a part of it. how can we get involved in each other's lives if we don't know what's really going on? an authentic community takes time and it takes effort. it does not develop overnight, nor does it simply happen. it requires intentionality and commitment. intentionality to be transparent in our sharings with one another and commitment to be there to support, love, encourage and edify one another no matter what the situation.
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inching outJanuary 18, 2006one of the most dangerous places to drive is in the parking lot. lots of careless mistakes are made there and countless number of accidents, though minor, occur frequently. knowing this, whenever i drive into one, i drive slow and i drive careful. i am relentless about this when entering and leaving parking spaces. 99% of the time, i will back my car into the spot. while this is more troublesome, i see it as a safety issue. when leaving my parking space, i am much more aware of my surroundings than if i were to back out of my spot. why? i don't know who will be park next to me. if a larger vehicle, like a van or suv parked beside me, i'd have a much harder time with visibility. it's still hard even if i back in. so what do i do? i inch out, very slowly. i keep my foot on the break and let my car start moving, bit by bit. we're taught to be careful, aren't we? we don't like the idea of risk, danger or uncertainty. safety, comfort, security, those are terms that resonated well with us. in fact, we desire these things. we create security measures for ourselves, house insurance, car insurance, life insurance, fire insurance, etc. we create ways to store up money for when we retire, like RRSPs, mutual funds and bonds. this is the culture we live in. this is the culture we were brought up in. i don't know anyone that will just rush out of their parking spot without being careful about it. we know better than that. that's the problem. we think we know better. we calculate the risk, measure it up against our own security and make a decision. often, our decision is for security rather than risk. of course, there is nothing wrong with that, but we miss out on many great possibilities when we do. more over, we miss out the potential God moments in our lives because we decided to err on safety rather than risk. personally i find it thrilling to step out in faith and trust God. i know that He's in control of everything and that He has the best in store. i know that if i listen to myself instead of Him, i will miss out on witnessing the wonder and majesty of my God. yes, sometimes it's easier said than done, but faith was never meant to be easy or comfortable. a speaker recently said that the "safest place to be is in the centre of God's will." don't confuse this with what tend to understand as safety. it's not safety in the sense that you will be protected from all harm. it's not safety in that nothing will ever go wrong. it's knowing that God is in control of all things and that He has the best plans in mind. Christianity isn't based on security. it's not based on being comfortable, safe or secure. the early disciples were mocked, persecuted, whipped, thrown in jail, beheaded and even crucified for their faith. if we were ever to face those kind of conditions, how many of us would cower into the shadows and play ignorant? how many of us rather be safe than face that sort of hardship and suffering? i desire to life the Christian life in its entirety. i believe the Christian life is full of excitement, possibilities and wonder. how could it not be? Christ LIVES in us. the Holy Spirit DWELLS in us. besides, how can we call ourselves people of faith if we aren't able to trust God in all things—our very lives? how can we be people of faith if we choose to trust in ourselves and go for safety rather than the things that God calls us to? if God calls you to something and you decide against it because you want to play it safe, you are choosing yourself over Him. you are saying that you know better. you are saying that your ways are better. we demean God and belittle Him. the Bible has some great examples of people who lived by faith. esther wasn't afraid of stepping out, even though her life was in jeopardy (see esther 4:16). shadrach, meshach and abednego weren't afraid of being thrown into the blazing furnace because of their faith (see daniel 3:16-18). do you think it was easy for them to do step out like that? do you think that their decision was leading to safety, security and comfort? if we continue the stories, we find that esther was not killed and that in fact, she helped rescue her own people. shadrach, meshach and abednego were not burnt in the furnace, and in fact, their defiance to king nebuchadnezzar for their faith led him to make a decree that no one was to say anything against God. let us choose to chase after the things of God, no matter how wild, how crazy they may be. and let us decide to never be satisfied with safety when we know God is calling us to step out in faith.
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welcome to the wonderful world of arts & youth ministryJanuary 6, 2006one of my biggest questions upon entering youth ministry was how it related to my passion for arts ministry. i used to think that were polar opposites, but now i find that they are two sides of the same coin. i wrote a paper on this topic for my foundations class last term. it encapsulates a lot of my thoughts about arts ministry and why i see it as so powerful and so important. if you're interested in reading it, you can download the paper here or read it in this entry. Welcome to the Wonderful World of Arts & Youth Ministry It's Sunday morning. Meet Brian. He's a fifteen year-old who just got dumped by his girlfriend. He's in the pits. Brian is totally devastated. He feels so abandoned. He's certainly in no mood to listen to the word of God today. He hates how Christians are so afraid to let their true emotions show in church. He mopes around and eventually finds his way to a seat in the church auditorium. The lights dim. It's pitch black. A hush of silence falls over the auditorium. A light hits the stage, revealing a young a male teen. He begins to speak. He's frustrated. He shares how difficult his life has been after his girlfriend dumped him. He shares all his raw thoughts and emotions. He yells at God for not caring. Then, a song starts to play in the background. It's loud, it's angry. It carries all the emotion that the boy is feeling. But then it takes an unexpected twist. The music softens. The actor walks to his bed and picks up a Bible and begins to read it. The lyrics of the song talk about how God is ever-present in all circumstances. Meanwhile, Brian cannot believe this is all happening. He thinks to himself, that's me up there! He's surprised at the authenticity and realness of the drama. He begins sensing the loving presence of God Almighty. His heart is ready to hear the word of God. And to think, all of this happened before the pastor came up to talk. Styles of learning Linguistic Logical-mathematical Spatial Bodily-kinesthetic Musical Interpersonal Intrapersonal Getting into the lives of youth It's all about the experience Joan emerges from the Pit breathless and laughing her highpitched laugh, her clothes out of kilter? "It's fun," she enthuses, because "anything goes" ? one nearby girl gushes, "I like being with lots of people really crowded and pushed together." (1998, p. 208)It is all about the experience. Dawson McAllister, an expert on youth culture, writes, "young people value experience more than propositional truth. That doesn't mean we throw away truth, but we have to come through the door they have opened to us. That door is experience" (1999, p. 101). Here's the real good news, "their [youth] desire is to experience God and not just be told about him or told about the things he doesn't like" (Kimball, 2003, p. 36). Let's turn our attention to television and music. On television watching, Walt Mueller (1994) writes the following: students watch an average of twenty-two hours of television a week. By the time a child graduates from high school, he or she will have watched about twenty-three hundred hours of television as compared with the eleven thousand hours spent in the school classroom. (as cited by Murphy, 1997, p. 69)Following this, studies indicate that "the average teen watches somewhere between thirty minutes and two hours of music videos a day. In other words, while in high school, students will watch an average of 56 days (1,344 hrs) of MTV" (Mueller, 1994, as cited by Murphy, 1997, p. 69). On top of all this TV watching, most teens "listen to four to six hours of music daily. The reality is that students will listen to 1,680 hours of music, which equals 70 days, in one year" (Murphy, 1997, p. 69). Youth really are fully immersed in television and music! Does this perk your curiousity at all? Why are youth spending so much time watching television and listening to music? I believe the answer lies in the fact that both have the capacity to create powerful experiences, experiences that youth so long for. One of my favourite television shows is Extreme Makeover: Home Edition. It's a show that builds amazing new houses for families in desparate situations. These are real-life stories. I often find myself in tears at their stories and at the response of all the volunteers that make building the houses possible. When I watch this show, it is definitely an experience. This is but one of the many, many shows available to youth. Each show creates its' own type of experience that youths can connect with. Music is equally powerful. Music can give expression to feelings, emotions and thoughts that youth may not otherwise be able to express on their own. Music can also be used to augment known feelings and emotions. If a youth was angry, he/she could play an angry song and let the lyrics and music fuel their anger even more. Music can be a comforter. Knowing that someone else has gone through a similar struggle is very encouraging to youth. This kind of frequent exposure to television and music creates unspoken expectations of quality in the minds of youth. For the most part, television programming and music are very high-caliber. The best of the best (whether it's musicians, producers, actors) are involved in all stages of the process, from creation, to production, to execution. If you were to simply watch one of the big award shows, like the annual American Music Awards, you'd be blown away by the quality of it. These award shows incorporate lighting effects, visual media, superb audio quality and high definition video into their events. This sets the standard really high for any type of production. When was the last time your church sat down and thought about crafting quality services? Has your church ever sat down and thought about it? Whether you like it or not, we are in a sense, being compared with the productions of television. If we put out quality that is far worse than what youth are accustomed to, why would they ever want to stay at our churches? The church could learn a thing or two from MTV about creating experiences. This moves us to our final section, the arts. The arts in all its glory Where would any of us be if our planet were void of music, poetry, dance, paintings, literature, and film? Our lives would lack color and fullness and the human understanding that comes with telling stories through images, movement, and words. The most powerful moments and significant memories in the life of our church have been created by our artists. (2004, p. 71)Go back to the beginning of this paper, read over the two stories and note once again the differences between the two. I believe the arts help us reach our youth more effectively because the arts are experienced. In the previous section, we learnt that the doorway to youth is experience. The arts capture thoughts, emotions and feelings. They are experienced in the mind, soul and heart. Alvin Reid, writes in Raising the Bar, "we can use the arts to present truth to a more right-brained generation, and we can also help students experience what they learn, so they make immediate application in a real world" (2004, p. 107). Paul Schreivogel, writes in The World of Art-The World of Youth, "art opens avenues for them [youth] to explore the past, to experience life in the present and to discover a bridge of hope to the future" (Schreivogel, 1968, p. 55). Do you see the potential? If you do, I think you'll agree that it's time to revisit the way we plan church services. If teens and college students decide to step into our church doors, we have got to make sure we make the most out of it. In today's economic-minded world, we are constantly weighing everything against an unspoken cost-benefit ratio. If the benefits outweigh the costs, it's worthwhile. If a youth comes into a service and is bored to death, they are not going to come back. If a youth comes into a service and sees poor quality, they are not going to come back. Remember, this is against the backdrop of high quality programming like MTV. Redefining the Weekly Message: What's the Best Medium? Avoid fragmentation What's the point? A cautionary word Spiritual gifts and youth Ideas to get started Final thoughts Bibilography
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celebrating the artsJanuary 5, 2006over my christmas break, i've had the opportunity to see the power of the arts at work. my last day of school was december 16th. i went to portico that night to check out their christmas musical called mrs. scrooge. mrs. scrooge was a homegrown production. the script was written by a member of their church and the music, for the most part, was original. i was blown away by the quality of it. the kind of coordination, planning, time and dedication required to pull off something like that was completely mind-boggling. there must have been at least 100 volunteers to pull that night off. there were musicians, lighting crews, video crews, a/v crews, actors, singers, script writers, music writers, set designers, graphic designers, producers, directors and choreographers for the dance numbers—they truly used the arts to its full potential. what was also so awesome about their production was how it incorporated a wide variety of ages. kids, teens, young adults and adults all took part in putting the service together. what incredible unity that shows! plus, the mix of cultures that took part in it too (i love that about the arts. it knows no bounds. it is not limited by age, gender or culture). i was so inspired that night. i decided that my creative team needed to go see this, so come sunday, i literally forced all four of them to go. i never thought it possible to see that kind of production in my own city. i thought it was something for mega churches like willowcreek, with the financial resources and manpower to pull it off. portico really isn't even all that big. judging by their sanctuary size, i'd say they could fit between 600-800 people in there. who would have thought that a church like that could put together something so powerful! flourishing arts ministry IS possible in this city. december 23rd was christmas dinner at my church. my creative team has been planning this service since may/june. our theme for the night was acceptance. we felt that this was a topic that everyone faces, especially for chinese people. we decided that our target age group was high-school and college students and that we wanted to reach the unchurched. we looked at the topic of acceptance from three ways. people accepting us, ourselves accepting us, and finally God accepting us. we moved through the evening in that exact order. before the night began, we set up an art gallery featuring the different works of our church members. we had paintings, photography, graphic designs, installations, poetry, and motion graphics. i was impressed by the quality and breadth of the different arts represented in our gallery. i'm positive that there are more artists in my church. during dinner, we had a girl paint a self-portrait. during the night, she would come up and touch up her portrait. the point of this was to show how we are not satisfied with who we are. that we try to cover up and paint ourselves to be a certain way. we did not use a canvas for the painting. it was a mirror. the metaphor was that underneath all the paint, is our true selves—the person God created us to be. after dinner, we started off with a video. the point of the video was to hint at our desire for people to accept us. it depicted two people going through a very normal day. but at key points, we'd throw in a line or two to get people thinking. for example, one scene had a girl trying on different outfits. we wrote "dressing to impress" for that. the video ends with the two characters returning home through their front doors. immediately following that was our duologue (monologue with two people). we had two doors set up on stage that the actors came out of (in order to tie the video to it). the script was basically about our desire for people to accept us. we have each actor talking out loud about the reasons why they do what they do. they ask rhetorical questions throughout. following this, we had a girl give a testimony. she really helped the transition into ourselves accepting us. she talked about wanting to please other people and how that eventually ended up affecting her own self acceptance. it was very powerful. she ended off saying "this is my story, what's yours?" we gave people a brief moment of silence, to let them think about their own lives. the words "what's yours?" were projected on the screen. after that, a spoken word piece was given. this spoken word was written in conjunction with the girl who gave her testimony, so the fit was amazing. the point of the spoken word piece was to help people internalize this theme of acceptance. following this, was the song "beautiful" by bethany dillon, performed by a singer and some musicians. a sermon was given after this to bring in how God accepts us the way we are. our response took two stages. the first, was the song "anyway" by nichole nordeman. this song really helped tie all the different elements of the night. while this song was played, we had the painter come back up and scrape off the paint from the mirror (showing our true selfs, not the created person we painted on it). we also had the girl who gave her testimony come and scrape the paint off with her. following the song, we had a time for corporate response. we had purchased little mirrors and placed them in each of the dinner tables. each mirror was painted black and had a magnet on the back of it. if the person so chose, they were to scrape the black paint off the mirror and then proceed to the front to place the mirror on an iron cross we had set up at the front. i was NOT prepared for what would happen at the response time. streams of people got up and went to the front to place their mirrors on the cross. it was non-stop for a good while. i stood there in awe of how God moved that night. i was so inspired. if only we had more God moments like this each sunday. if only we had more time to craft more services. possibilities floated around in my head. the reason why we use the arts, is to more effectively communicate a message. we use the arts to weave a message together that is not only understood in the mind, but also experienced in the heart and soul. i think the response would have been very different if we had just planned a "typical" church service, music + a message. we had about 185 people come that night. of those, 53 people responded. that's more than 1/4 of the people that came up! and remember, this was with unchurched people too. i'm well aware that we had at least one person accept Christ that night. we had a guestbook in our art gallery. one of our visitors wrote how she really related to what was portrayed during our night. when i asked people what they thought of the night, they were really impressed by how unified the message was delivered. they were impressed by how everything was so woven together. i must say, i am so proud of my creative team for putting this together. one of the actresses was really blown away by the night. she said something like how she never thought it possible to see the arts used like that in a chinese church. i was like YES, it is possible! this CAN be done in OUR church. i really believe God is stirring something special in my church. for whatever reason, we seem to have a lot of artists. and the beautiful part of it, is that our church celebrates using the arts in all our services (though not every week). december 24th, i went to UAC to see their production of "word on the street" (written by willowcreek). i was in high hopes for it because i knew how complicated the production was. i also knew how gifted the people at UAC were, so i knew they'd be able to pull it off. i was so inspired by what i saw. i couldn't believe how well they put the production together, from the lighting, to the set design, to the music, to the singers and actors. and rather than simply following the script, they also added their own uniqueness to it. they added in some musical numbers and changed some of the lines. they also designed an amazing set. it was just like what willow had. to understand the complexity of it, you really need to see the set for yourself (check out http://www.willowcreek.com/servicebuilder/seasonal_events/WordontheStreet.asp). three examples of the power of the arts in one week. this is what i'd give my life for. i want to see the power of arts unleashed in the local church. i want to see people crafting services with excellence. i want to see lives changed, challenged and transformed on a weekly basis. i want to see people excited to go to church again. i want to see more God moments in our churches. "unless and until all artists in the church get into the game, the church will never reach its redemptive potential” - nancy beach, an hour on sunday, pg. 10
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